I’ve thought really hard and through if I should post what’s been going on in my side. So... either this will make me feel like I’m not the only one or make me a target to cyber bullying.
As a kids I’ve had a problem socializing with others as well as grasping the concept of grammar. I’ve gotten better as the years went on but my social skills was still in need to be fine tuned. When I was in my high school days, I remembered that I had to work super hard (it was a college prepatory school)and it not only affected my social life but it affected my mental health. Because of how different and stressed I was, I became depressed and wanted to end my life.
Fortunately a teacher found me in distressed and had the school make me take a week off to be mentally evaluated. It wasn’t until the doctor diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder; which sadly is a common mental disorder considering I had a problem socializing with other people and learning grammar. It was hard but I managed to get through this and graduated with no problem and no medications.
Fast forward to last year after I got my AS in film, finished participating in the college program, my grandfather died from a slip and fall accident turned bad, my two dogs who died from a life threatening disease, and started working part time for a cruising industry. My family started renovating the house and I remembered how overwhelming it was since I had a difficult time handle congestion and giant messes. Since I had two new dogs that were only 6 months they were learing to be house broken; it made the situation worst. Because a lot was thrown at me from training the new dogs, the house being renovation, people I know doing better than me, and so on and so forth that I couldn’t handle it. It go to the the point where I was stressed, overwhelmed, and irritable 24/7 like I was in high school but worst.
It got so bad it landed me in the hospital where I was being evaluated for TEN days! I remembered that I had to call out from work which upsetted since I didn’t want to let the crew down.
Fortunately I got better in the process while I was in the hospital and surprisingly I was diagnosed again for general anxiety disorder. Since then I had to stop drinking caffine, eat healthy, see a therapist, get the right amount of sleep, etc.
Although my anxiety is still there; I managed to get through life without taking anti-anxiety medications (I did after being released but it got confused, nauseas, and even drowsy) and such.
The reason I wanted to post this is not to make you feel bad for me but because I wanted to let everyone know there are people out there who feel this way. Whether if they are mentally stressed, feel that they don’t belong because of a disorder (visibly or not), or they are just having a difficult time reaching out to someone. When there is a rain cloud; there is always going to be a rainbow and there is going to be someone who will be your rainbow.
So it’s ok to feel this way but it’s always best to reach out to someone trustful and discuss about these things or even find an expert such as a therapist; which is what I’m trying to do, or a doctor about everything that’s been going on. If you see someone feeling that way, talk to them. Who knows, you might have made a major impact on their life.
So here’s to mental health!
As a kids I’ve had a problem socializing with others as well as grasping the concept of grammar. I’ve gotten better as the years went on but my social skills was still in need to be fine tuned. When I was in my high school days, I remembered that I had to work super hard (it was a college prepatory school)and it not only affected my social life but it affected my mental health. Because of how different and stressed I was, I became depressed and wanted to end my life.
Fortunately a teacher found me in distressed and had the school make me take a week off to be mentally evaluated. It wasn’t until the doctor diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder; which sadly is a common mental disorder considering I had a problem socializing with other people and learning grammar. It was hard but I managed to get through this and graduated with no problem and no medications.
Fast forward to last year after I got my AS in film, finished participating in the college program, my grandfather died from a slip and fall accident turned bad, my two dogs who died from a life threatening disease, and started working part time for a cruising industry. My family started renovating the house and I remembered how overwhelming it was since I had a difficult time handle congestion and giant messes. Since I had two new dogs that were only 6 months they were learing to be house broken; it made the situation worst. Because a lot was thrown at me from training the new dogs, the house being renovation, people I know doing better than me, and so on and so forth that I couldn’t handle it. It go to the the point where I was stressed, overwhelmed, and irritable 24/7 like I was in high school but worst.
It got so bad it landed me in the hospital where I was being evaluated for TEN days! I remembered that I had to call out from work which upsetted since I didn’t want to let the crew down.
Fortunately I got better in the process while I was in the hospital and surprisingly I was diagnosed again for general anxiety disorder. Since then I had to stop drinking caffine, eat healthy, see a therapist, get the right amount of sleep, etc.
Although my anxiety is still there; I managed to get through life without taking anti-anxiety medications (I did after being released but it got confused, nauseas, and even drowsy) and such.
The reason I wanted to post this is not to make you feel bad for me but because I wanted to let everyone know there are people out there who feel this way. Whether if they are mentally stressed, feel that they don’t belong because of a disorder (visibly or not), or they are just having a difficult time reaching out to someone. When there is a rain cloud; there is always going to be a rainbow and there is going to be someone who will be your rainbow.
So it’s ok to feel this way but it’s always best to reach out to someone trustful and discuss about these things or even find an expert such as a therapist; which is what I’m trying to do, or a doctor about everything that’s been going on. If you see someone feeling that way, talk to them. Who knows, you might have made a major impact on their life.
So here’s to mental health!
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