Okay, so after a lot of thought I've decided to post this. By now you've probably seen my last thread, and just to start this off, I'm okay. Well, when I posted that thread... it was immediately after hearing some bad news from a friend. She told me something that happened that directly involved me, and I was scared. I'd rather not go into detail, but I feel like being so afraid was justified (and still is, honestly). After posting the thread, I regretted it. I love the game, I love the players, and I love the staff. I didn't want to leave them, and I knew that leaving would have consequences for the game.
At this point, I continued to work on things behind the scenes (such as the new event calendar, changes to CTF, checking the servers, things like that) because I didn't want to hurt the game. However, doing this felt like lying, and I didn't want to do that to a community I love, especially when what happened was just due to a few people. I've felt guilty about it, which is why I've decided to post this now.
I'm not going to leave anymore, however my prescense in the game and the forums will still be reduced for a while. Thank you for your kind messages and support after I posted the first thread, it meant a lot, and I'm sorry for posting it so quickly. I was very scared and emotional at the time.
I love all of you!
At this point, I continued to work on things behind the scenes (such as the new event calendar, changes to CTF, checking the servers, things like that) because I didn't want to hurt the game. However, doing this felt like lying, and I didn't want to do that to a community I love, especially when what happened was just due to a few people. I've felt guilty about it, which is why I've decided to post this now.
I'm not going to leave anymore, however my prescense in the game and the forums will still be reduced for a while. Thank you for your kind messages and support after I posted the first thread, it meant a lot, and I'm sorry for posting it so quickly. I was very scared and emotional at the time.
I love all of you!
. I'm so glad you're still around even if it's mostly behind the scenes. You've put so much love into this game, and while the other staff love the game as much as you do, it just wouldn't be the same without you. Just know that you've got a lot of friends here sending you good thoughts 
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I'm so happy to hear that everything is okay. We love you too Amy! 
